I’ve always been very driven, and my belief was that we have ‘no time to waste’ here on earth. Everything needs to be well-planned and executed according to my timeline. Let’s go, fast, chop chop, quick.
When things often don't go as planned, I’ve found myself questioning if God loves me.
‘If He loves me, wouldn’t He want me to be happy?’ ‘That’s such a great plan, why isn’t God going to bless me?’
‘Isn’t that a great purpose/plan?’
What silly questions, but they hold so much weight for me then because even though I knew God makes all things beautiful in His time (Ecc 3), I never quite accepted or internalised that truth.
This year was difficult, painful, and downright crappy in many ways. But I believe this was still a year of God’s goodness, not simply despite the overt chaos that has permeated it, but because of it. We need only to open our spiritual eyes to see beyond the physical, and get in touch with His heart.
Our culture now tells us we have to live up to a certain standard - have a large amount of money in our banks; attain a high ranking job; have a huge social media following or ‘likes’ on our posts - in order to be “successful”. I’m not saying those are wrong to have. But as I pondered about it, I questioned myself, “Do these really form the foundation of identity that God has meant for me?”
By frequently putting His Truth on our lips, we are building a fortress of Truth in our minds. This fortress will allow us to withstand the fiery arrows of lies and accusations that the enemy throws at us. When our minds are so filled with whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, praiseworthy, and excellent (Phil 4:8), we have no more room for the lies and negative words spoken over us.